Every individual and generation in our society for has been involved in an
ongoing topic of discussion with the term, happiness. The one question still
remaining is simple. What is happiness? Is it your significant other? Is it your family,
friends, a certain hobby? Some may say happiness is obtained through the
possession of materialistic objects, but others may have a hard time experiencing
happiness because of chemical imbalances. Depending on who you ask, you will
receive a different answer. According to the dictionary, happiness is simply defined
as the state of being happy. So how does one achieve this state of being happy, and
how long will this last?
My state of happiness did not come walking to me. I had to discover it and
make it a part of my life and who I am. The way my personality is, I mold to people,
places, and my surroundings to make it more comfortable for others. Some say it’s
fake or I’m not being myself but I have a mask or two depending on whom I am
around. Meaning I’m one way with my family and another way around my friends.
I lacked complete happiness for years, rooting from self-image issues and not
being in a comfortable position academically. Whenever somebody said something
negative about me, I went on this chase to prove them wrong. A simple example
came about 4 years ago when this girl said I had a bad smile and no sense of style.
Was she right, maybe? Did it sting, oh yeah! After that comment, my self- esteem
dropped and I took drastic measures to change my appearance in hopes to achieve
my internal state of happiness. I got braces put on to fix my teeth, which by the way
took 3 painful years. I also started looking into men’s fashion to change the way I
dressed and worked on my image in various ways. This was all in hopes to appear as
a new and improved person. It sounds like a cliché Hollywood movie, but it was far
from that. I was so worried about proving her wrong, I became very self-centered
and self-absorbed, and that was not who I was deep down inside. I became a little
distant from family and friends because my only worry was to never hear that
comment again. The irony in this entire situation was my lack of happiness. At this
point in my life I had very few friends left and I was an individual with no substance.
About two years ago, something happened to me which turned my life
around. I met someone who pulled down my cocky mask and created a confident
man. I still remember, she would take pictures from across the table and I would not
smile. Instead, I would make a pouty or ugly face because I was that insecure about
my smile. This amazing soul would not take any picture unless I smiled. As time
passed she taught me how to smile and be confident with myself. She introduced me
to some amazing stores to shop at and create the look I always wanted. Through all
of the challenges we faced, she was there to guide me in ways that made me
understand the beauty of life, and that acquiring internal happiness was not difficult.
In return, the self-centered Kay started to disappear. I became a person that wanted
to help others find their internal happiness through finding their own self-worth.
Long story short, we both helped each other in so many ways. Things ended, but she
left an unimaginable impact on my life and I cannot thank her enough for it. I found a
best friend in her who will always be there for me.
My happiness, my smile, my confidence, and who I am today is because of
her. Even though we are just friends, she is the reason for my complete state of
happiness. Through my time with her I learned to love myself, ignore negativity, and
promote love. Sometimes we get so lost in wordily things we forgot to invest a little
love into us. As she would always tell me, “F#$& what people think, just do what
makes you happy.” She left her mark on me forever. All I ask now is, who will you
make happy today?